I feel a process in me has started that is unstoppable and no matter what are my external circumstances, will take me to the destination. I am unnecessarily worrying about life and affairs of the world. This process makes me feel that all my circumstances are not important and they are just temporary accompaniments to my finite form, to this embodiment. And they all will fall off in due course. Only good use of this body is to observe and commune with the process whenever time permits and in the remaining time fulfill all the duties demanded by the circumstances. This body, this mind and these circumstances are not mine and were only given to me and are the result of external causes of the world and hence I must not be a hindrance to the natrual and complete fruition of the cause and effect chain that has set them in motion in the first place.
Because if I am not the cause of my body and my circumstances, then what "right" do I have over it or what "power" can I have over the consequences of those causes?
No, there can not be any rights or powers in human life. There can only be duties. Even if I delude myself or others delude myself that I have certain "power" or "rights" over this body, it is not going to work. And the first time it does not work, the illusion is going to be broken. And for all, these illusions keep breaking up, left right and center, every day (including me)! But they still keep going on believing in their power or rights. This is what is "normal". But once you see through this "normal", it is hard to keep returning to this "normal". Even if you return to that "normal" temporarily, it should be due to an act of forgetfulness or as a call of duty but we savour this normal and jump in it with a wish to exercise our powers and rights. And this is how the madness continues.